This sounds like poor outfit leadership in my opinion. You failed to lead your small band into conflicts where you would have the greatest chance of success. Planetside's greatest flaw is also it's greatest strength: Freedom. Freedom to suceed on your own merit is also freedom to fail on your own merit. Frankly, you should have lead your team to join a Zerg and acted as a objective focused team with the goal of securing and holding specific objectives. Instead, you threw your soldiers into one meat grinder after another, and instead of taking personal responsibility for your failure of leadership, you decided to blame SOE allowing you the freedom to fail. You can either learn from this failure, or you can take your little band of men and go play something that more strictly confines you and your soldiers so that you inability to lead plays far less of a factor in your winning or losing.